My Hair

My Hair My hair is as plain and boring as usual. Wake up every morning take a shower, brush out, and blow dry/air dry. Well hair you've been through everything with me. Windy days, rainy days, HOT days, happy days, scary days, and sad days. Although I know I've torture you with the hair curler/straightener/blow dryer/ teasing comb buts it's because I want to make sure you always look your best even during those rough days. I may get irritated and decide to bring out the scissors to try and rid the frizzy split ends, but I do it with high hopes that a new strand will grow back out and you look new and amazing. Times when you would get stuck in the car window every time I would roll the window up, and you had me screech as I yanked you back out, well you seem to have planned that out at exactly the perfect moment. You always made my sisters and mom laugh like crazy hyenas. That was very clever of you hair. All I have to say is thanks for everything! You made me feel confident every time I would see those hair growth commercial pop up on the television screen. Hair I have to say please don't fall out. Please!

I'm Proud!

I’m Proud! I have to admit I'm proud to be a lady. I'm proud to be eighteen. I'm proud to be a roadrunner. I'm proud to say I'm senior. I'm proud to represent the class of 2012. We did it Holbrook High School! We are just a few seconds away from reaching out our hands to grasp onto that Diploma! I've been given the opportunity of sharing the BEST four years of my high school experience with such "AMAZING" talented classmates! I wish you all the very best in life! Keep pushing through the toughest obstacles. I know each and everyone of you have faces those difficult milestones since the very beginning of high school! Remember to strive in every aspect possible. Remember those encouraging words teachers, friends, and loved ones gave to you. Most importantly remember who you are! I will truly and honestly miss every single one of you. My fellow class mates we've done it! Now go and live in happiness! (:

Musica

This Friday I went and watch the movie "Think like a man" and through out the movie one specific song played three times throughout the movie. The song is called "Tonight" by John Legend. The songs' genre is R&B which I happen to be a fan of. As this song played I told myself, afterwards I'm going to download the song. The movie soon ended and I went straight to my phone and began downloading. Soon after I was inseperable, I listened to this song as often as possible; while I got dressed, while I drove, and while I took a shower. On Saturday my sisters told me that this song will always remind them of me! Which brings me to believe that music is an amazing gift. You dance silly to a song in front of a friend and that friend hears that song tha very next and immediatly thinks of you. I believe songs are a great learning opportunity for other simply because it will help others remember certain people or situations. So enjoy the next time you hear a good song someone will remember you when it plays the next time.

Accidents

Have you ever been so angry at someone or something and you feel as if you need to say something to that someone or something yet, you keep it in and for some odd reason you end up blurting whatever it is you were trying to keep in and then all of a sudden your caught up in the moment and you end up in an akward position? Well have you ever consider the thought that whatever it was that pushed you into blurting things out was meant to be? Ponder on this for a second. To be honest I strongly believe that accident such as these were meant to be. I'll give u an example, a friend tells you that he/she overheard another friend accuse you of some untruthful lies. I know what your thinking "Why are you even listen to this friend to begin with?" Well first of all, the friend who apparently overheard the conversation of the other friend speaking of the untruthful lies was indeed chosen to be put in that exact position at that exact moment, to coiencidently overhear the conversation. Well as this whole drama sequence continues you decide to go and confront this friend of telling the unfaithful lies about you. You've had enough of being nice and letting situations such as these slip by, you begin to feel as if you need to handle this situation in a not so very nice way. As you desperatly search for the friend who's telling the lies. You get so caught up in keeping in your anger that you feel as if you need to be mean to other but you don't. Finally a good friend whos is not involved in the drama sequence stops by and notices that something is just not right so this new friend approches you and you both to conversate of the situation. Sooner than you knew your rage slowly adjustes itself. The new friend speaks and begins to give you some advice of how to handle the situation. As you listen, you have this kind of time machine moment, where you look back of how you immediatly sprung into some kind of wild animal telling others how mad you were at one of your friends for telling lies. While your thinkin you immediatly recognize how quickly one friends changed ur mood from angry to understanding, and you find the entire situation foolish. Seeing how emotions can change so fast fasinates me now that I see I get angry over silly situations which many of us would call "accidents." I may be wrong for many, but I believe the accident of blurting out angry remarks, secrets, or whatever else without much thought was meant to take you on a new adventure of recognizing emotions consistantly changing. The next time you accidently yell at someone think twice because though you did not mean to behave in such way, you were meant to experience the situation.

Pictures & Memories

Rummaging through my pictures that have been stored in my phone for about a year, and I spot a picture of my best friend and I holding our Med-Start certificate which has $4,850 written on it with our names just below it. Receiving this reward is definatly a beautiful memory because I've never recieved such an award, with $4,850 written on it! I was filled with so much joy when I heard my name being called. The Med-Start program consisted of my acceptance to attend 5weeks at the University of Arizona! Along with my best friend! The night after receiving such award I was up all night pondering, Wow! I'm spending my very last summer of high school on a university campus! I was terrified at the thought that I, Shantina Kinlicheenie, will be soon considered a college student. Then again, I was extremly excited! As the days crept closer and closer to the day when I head to U of A! I remmbered the night before double checking that I had evrything packed neatly in my bags. Finally the day came and I was in the car with my mother, my uncle, and my boyfriend driving through globe as well as other towns that I did not know even exist. Anyways, I remember my boyfriend using his phone to help us navagate our way toward U of A. Within a blink of an eye we were there! Passing through narrow roads and spotting college students who continued schooling throughout the duration of their summer. I remember calling my bestfriend asking where she was and asking for even more specific directions of which building I was going to sleep in for the next five weeks. After getting her directions we took quite some time to find a parking spot. Driving in circles and making illegal u-turns everywhere and still, no parking spot. Everyone in the vehicle soon becomes fustrated because the car became incredibly hot! Then my mom suggested that the ladies will get dropped off near the building since I needed to check in while the men were to find a parking. Well her plan went as she expected. My mother and I walked into the building and I must say inside it was very comforting! So as you can see I had a blast living on the U of A campus it's one of those memorable milestones that I will forever cherish! So go ahead and look through your photo albums. You will be surprised on what you may see. Cherish every picture because they're your key of remembering the great times you had as the picture was being taken.

Mommy Love

Dear Mom,
 I love you, I love you, I love you with every inch of my heart! I'm writing you a letter because I not only want to show you how much I love you but to let friends, family, and acquaintances know how much I love you. Also to tell you how much I truley appreciate every little thing you've done for me. You are my super hero whom I cherish every second of the day. You are my inspiration to become an individual who can accomplish any and every obstacle I encounter, and the person who believes she can make the world a better place. You have taught me many meaningful lessons from the very beginning of my life. No matter how many times trouble seemed to find me, you were always there with open arms, letting me in, resting my head against your heart, listening to your heartbeat softly speak. Telling me never to run and hide from my troubles or fears. I thank you mom, thank you for your motherly love. I know how tough it is for you, as well as the girls, after the incident involving you know what, and you know who. I want to say thank you for doing the best you could of giving the girls and I a better life, you never gave up on us, you didn't run away. You knew you had to find a way to let the girls and I (especially me) that we can not hold onto the past, though I fell on my knees numerous times letting out numerous cries, you picked me up and told me with such gentle voice "It's not the end baby, It's only the beginning. Im not going anywhere, stand up baby, I love you, we're going go get through this." Mom you have no idea how much those words got me thinking. If I were to turn back time I wouldn't do it, because remembering times when we had our moments of hatred I finally understand why you told me that I was acting foolish and selfish. I want to say I'm very sorry for the pain I've caused you. I still love you and I thank you for taking on the task of raising my beautiful sisters and I (your daughters) all on your own without hardly any help from anyone. You are my idol, who one day will follow in your footsteps. I want you to remember that I Love you and always will. I'm proud to say "Yes, that beautiful, strong women is my mom!" I love you mom and Thank you for everything! You are a role model for all women of all ages especially me. You've help me appreciate time and the little moments it holds. So don't feel stressed any more, Im here for you mom always and forever.
Love your baby girl Shabbie<3

Failure is a key

Words are forever going to be confusing to me! I mean there's masses of words out in the world, most aren't even in the dictionary. When the words are already in the dictionary, then you hear others speak and they end of using the word no where close to correct. Now don't even get me started on essays which are my worst enemies. Proper vocabulary, grammar, organization, etc. Even though I try to follow the proper instructions of writing a great paper, I always end up with a not so great grade! Failure is a lesson right? We have such high expectations for Everything, well I do at least, anyways I was wondering to myself one day. What if failure did not exist? what if everyone succeeds at everything? How would life be? Stress free? Well in my opinion I think life would be bad! For example in our society we have criminals, and imagining having a successful criminal who gets away with everything! He/she never gets caught and we have this psychotic individual walking amongst us is terrifying. A loved one, or someone you know may be the next target. Well I guess my main focus is this, failure is a great milestone, yes indeed it may hurt but, in the end we learn lessons. That is why it's important that criminals fail. In the end they will learn a moral lesson,while they are being held in prison for their criminal deed they caused. So I will turn my failure of my essays into something good. Into using my failure as a key of learning that I will soon one day see on my essay "Great Paper Shantina!" Failure is good, so think positive of the next time you fail. You just learned a valuable lesson.

Hard Work

So, I'm on my way back from the valley. Two and a half more hours until I reach my destination into Holbrook, Az. I am drained from the weekend I managed to continue on for one more day and that involved me attending a 21st birthday party. I am pretty sure you all think a party as in alcohol and loud music,but your wrong. I attended a birthday party that involved numerous kids running around everywhere inside and out. As family members put on tha finishing touches to the meal that was about to be served and elderly individuals carried on conversations among one another while I sat on the couch staring into the TV screen where two teen boys were playing mortal kombat on a PlayStation3. I then hear the eldest member call out to the boys "Turn the TV off." The TV turns off. All is silent with a few young children giggling and yelling "Tag you're it!" outside the kitchen window. The TV is silent and a prayer is said. Mothers and fathers call in sons and daughters notifying them that dinner is ready to be served. As they begin to swarm in one by one, like baby ducklings playing follow the leader they go to the bathroom to wash off their unsanatized hands. Everyone else then serves themselves (anxious to get to the cake the family tries to help one another finish off every last bit of food that was left in the dishware.) Finally in walks the cake. Everyone stares as it's being set preciously in the center of the dinner table. Everyone is excited and once again the children are called back inside to sing the "Happy Birthday Song." Running and shoving one another so as to be the closest to the cake chattering about the cake's purple frosting and purple flower decorations, little girls admire each Disney Channel princesses that have been starring since before I was born. Again all is quiet and one more prayer is being presented. This time different individuals are congratulating the 21 year old on all her accomplishments. For one, she is a mother of a beautiful two year old baby girl, she attends college and is still going strong, as well as living in a beautiful home where she raises her baby girl. Hearing this womans' family praise her on all of her hard work she has conquered and to see her face light up with so much joy and excitment got me to think that age may seem frightening, but seeing and hearing a 21 year old mother spend time with her family and not having one sip of alcohol in her system while she is being told of every good deed she has over come, is definitly a motivation for me because anything CAN be done with a little push of hardwork and strong will. Young or old, anyone and everyone is capable of anything if they can just find their hard working talent, and one day they will soon find that all of the hard work will be recognized. No matter the ups and downs that may occur throughout the journey hard work will be recognized as long as you DON'T give up.

Be Thankful

Wow, being a basketball athlete throughout just about all of my high school career and to finally see that I will no longer be playing basketball anymore with my team/sisters is indeed very stressful for me. Imagining graduation day I will soon loose my sisters, my friends, my teachers, and my school. They would definatley be there spiritually but dealing with this type of situation is difficult. I am unable to share a simple hug or a grand high five. It's very scary but being able to feel that no matter what college I intend on planning to go to excites me because I know I will miss my high school memories, friends, and teachers. Yet they helped me realize what kind of individual I am and I actually like myself! Hearing and knowing that I have numerous other individuals who will help guide me through life frees all the stress that has been weighing down upon my shoulders and for that I would like to thank every single one my high school friends and teachers. If you believe that you have no one or you feel no one will be there for you, think again one more time. Think of the time when someone opened the door for you at a restraunt, or smiled at you and said "hi". That individual cared and was willing to improve someones life. That is why I believe it is the right thing to feel thankful as much as you can, especially feeling thankful of the small things.

Flashbacks

So I was at the game on Friday in Chinle, Arizona, during the sectional tournament that was being held there and I happened to run into quite a few Holbrook graduates. It intringued me because every single one of them looked completly different! They each had a new hairstyle or they lost/gained some pounds, but thats not the point. My point is, they each matured in a way I have never realized that they could change. Each individuals tone was different, their choice of words was incredible. I was wondering how they become this way? Maybe because of college? Maybe because of their job title? Who knows, but I am a true witness. I see myself every day saying something or doing something in a totally different, yet mature, manner. It's very humerous to me, simply because I would not have thought that one day I was going to turn into this type of person. To me it's exactly the same when my grandparents tell me stories of when they were a teenager, their features say gray hair, wrinkles, and hard of hearing. Still they relate to me in every way possible from a huge mistake they have made causing them to get grounded by the parents for what should be a year but only in all reality it ends up to be a maximum of two months, aqain another simple mistake but this time it has no big consequences so it's considered a no biggie. The fact that I will soon graduate from my high school and one day end up seeing my fellow classmates but this time I will see myself presenting to others a mature individual. My voice and my word choice will soon say it all. It excites me and frightens me but at once. I guess thats why people quote "That just life." I am nervous to take that leap forward, I will eventually be making an even bigger leap a few more years down the road. So as the years keep on trucking by, I will soon see what my future has ahead of me.

Time Machine

It's amazing how much time fly’s by. Don't we all hear this saying all the time? Well I do, whenever I'm sitting alone somewhere and all of a sudden start to think that I have been sitting in that same spot for what feels just like two minutes but really it has been an hour. I have encountered this experience numerous times, and I still hear family members, friends, and sometimes complete strangers that I have never met before telling me that time is ticking. Throughout my seventeen years of my life I would think that I knew everything and that I didn't need help because I thought I had everything under control. Truth was, I needed more help than I expected. Times when I was around the age of seven I would always bug mom and dad about money, asking them if I could go and buy this and that, having no clue on how hard they've been working for the money they've earned of course it makes me wish time machines were already invented because what I know has got me wishing that I would not have had asked for so much from either one of my parents.

            Truth is if every little child is taught to take full responsibility of his/her self then he/she will never know what it is like to have fun and enjoy ones self. I see my little five year old sister playing and smiling all the time, she is what makes my family laugh during those gloomy days. Then again I sometimes get very annoyed with my sister but I’m proud to say that I still love her even though we bicker at one another just about everyday over little stuff. I would not want my little sister to be having so much stress put on her miniature sized shoulder, if that happened then there will be no more laughing and giggling around my home. All the thoughts going through my head about college, graduations, and scholarships has enough stress put on me as it is. I clearly understand why little kids live a worry free life when they are young and as time keeps on ticking eventually they will understand that they are soon to come face to face with the decisions that I am enduring at this very exact moment in my life. So I say enjoy the little one in your life it is already there job to make fun moments for you, do not let them slip on by because that clock is still ticking.