My Hair

My Hair My hair is as plain and boring as usual. Wake up every morning take a shower, brush out, and blow dry/air dry. Well hair you've been through everything with me. Windy days, rainy days, HOT days, happy days, scary days, and sad days. Although I know I've torture you with the hair curler/straightener/blow dryer/ teasing comb buts it's because I want to make sure you always look your best even during those rough days. I may get irritated and decide to bring out the scissors to try and rid the frizzy split ends, but I do it with high hopes that a new strand will grow back out and you look new and amazing. Times when you would get stuck in the car window every time I would roll the window up, and you had me screech as I yanked you back out, well you seem to have planned that out at exactly the perfect moment. You always made my sisters and mom laugh like crazy hyenas. That was very clever of you hair. All I have to say is thanks for everything! You made me feel confident every time I would see those hair growth commercial pop up on the television screen. Hair I have to say please don't fall out. Please!

I'm Proud!

I’m Proud! I have to admit I'm proud to be a lady. I'm proud to be eighteen. I'm proud to be a roadrunner. I'm proud to say I'm senior. I'm proud to represent the class of 2012. We did it Holbrook High School! We are just a few seconds away from reaching out our hands to grasp onto that Diploma! I've been given the opportunity of sharing the BEST four years of my high school experience with such "AMAZING" talented classmates! I wish you all the very best in life! Keep pushing through the toughest obstacles. I know each and everyone of you have faces those difficult milestones since the very beginning of high school! Remember to strive in every aspect possible. Remember those encouraging words teachers, friends, and loved ones gave to you. Most importantly remember who you are! I will truly and honestly miss every single one of you. My fellow class mates we've done it! Now go and live in happiness! (:

Musica

This Friday I went and watch the movie "Think like a man" and through out the movie one specific song played three times throughout the movie. The song is called "Tonight" by John Legend. The songs' genre is R&B which I happen to be a fan of. As this song played I told myself, afterwards I'm going to download the song. The movie soon ended and I went straight to my phone and began downloading. Soon after I was inseperable, I listened to this song as often as possible; while I got dressed, while I drove, and while I took a shower. On Saturday my sisters told me that this song will always remind them of me! Which brings me to believe that music is an amazing gift. You dance silly to a song in front of a friend and that friend hears that song tha very next and immediatly thinks of you. I believe songs are a great learning opportunity for other simply because it will help others remember certain people or situations. So enjoy the next time you hear a good song someone will remember you when it plays the next time.

Accidents

Have you ever been so angry at someone or something and you feel as if you need to say something to that someone or something yet, you keep it in and for some odd reason you end up blurting whatever it is you were trying to keep in and then all of a sudden your caught up in the moment and you end up in an akward position? Well have you ever consider the thought that whatever it was that pushed you into blurting things out was meant to be? Ponder on this for a second. To be honest I strongly believe that accident such as these were meant to be. I'll give u an example, a friend tells you that he/she overheard another friend accuse you of some untruthful lies. I know what your thinking "Why are you even listen to this friend to begin with?" Well first of all, the friend who apparently overheard the conversation of the other friend speaking of the untruthful lies was indeed chosen to be put in that exact position at that exact moment, to coiencidently overhear the conversation. Well as this whole drama sequence continues you decide to go and confront this friend of telling the unfaithful lies about you. You've had enough of being nice and letting situations such as these slip by, you begin to feel as if you need to handle this situation in a not so very nice way. As you desperatly search for the friend who's telling the lies. You get so caught up in keeping in your anger that you feel as if you need to be mean to other but you don't. Finally a good friend whos is not involved in the drama sequence stops by and notices that something is just not right so this new friend approches you and you both to conversate of the situation. Sooner than you knew your rage slowly adjustes itself. The new friend speaks and begins to give you some advice of how to handle the situation. As you listen, you have this kind of time machine moment, where you look back of how you immediatly sprung into some kind of wild animal telling others how mad you were at one of your friends for telling lies. While your thinkin you immediatly recognize how quickly one friends changed ur mood from angry to understanding, and you find the entire situation foolish. Seeing how emotions can change so fast fasinates me now that I see I get angry over silly situations which many of us would call "accidents." I may be wrong for many, but I believe the accident of blurting out angry remarks, secrets, or whatever else without much thought was meant to take you on a new adventure of recognizing emotions consistantly changing. The next time you accidently yell at someone think twice because though you did not mean to behave in such way, you were meant to experience the situation.

Pictures & Memories

Rummaging through my pictures that have been stored in my phone for about a year, and I spot a picture of my best friend and I holding our Med-Start certificate which has $4,850 written on it with our names just below it. Receiving this reward is definatly a beautiful memory because I've never recieved such an award, with $4,850 written on it! I was filled with so much joy when I heard my name being called. The Med-Start program consisted of my acceptance to attend 5weeks at the University of Arizona! Along with my best friend! The night after receiving such award I was up all night pondering, Wow! I'm spending my very last summer of high school on a university campus! I was terrified at the thought that I, Shantina Kinlicheenie, will be soon considered a college student. Then again, I was extremly excited! As the days crept closer and closer to the day when I head to U of A! I remmbered the night before double checking that I had evrything packed neatly in my bags. Finally the day came and I was in the car with my mother, my uncle, and my boyfriend driving through globe as well as other towns that I did not know even exist. Anyways, I remember my boyfriend using his phone to help us navagate our way toward U of A. Within a blink of an eye we were there! Passing through narrow roads and spotting college students who continued schooling throughout the duration of their summer. I remember calling my bestfriend asking where she was and asking for even more specific directions of which building I was going to sleep in for the next five weeks. After getting her directions we took quite some time to find a parking spot. Driving in circles and making illegal u-turns everywhere and still, no parking spot. Everyone in the vehicle soon becomes fustrated because the car became incredibly hot! Then my mom suggested that the ladies will get dropped off near the building since I needed to check in while the men were to find a parking. Well her plan went as she expected. My mother and I walked into the building and I must say inside it was very comforting! So as you can see I had a blast living on the U of A campus it's one of those memorable milestones that I will forever cherish! So go ahead and look through your photo albums. You will be surprised on what you may see. Cherish every picture because they're your key of remembering the great times you had as the picture was being taken.

Mommy Love

Dear Mom,
 I love you, I love you, I love you with every inch of my heart! I'm writing you a letter because I not only want to show you how much I love you but to let friends, family, and acquaintances know how much I love you. Also to tell you how much I truley appreciate every little thing you've done for me. You are my super hero whom I cherish every second of the day. You are my inspiration to become an individual who can accomplish any and every obstacle I encounter, and the person who believes she can make the world a better place. You have taught me many meaningful lessons from the very beginning of my life. No matter how many times trouble seemed to find me, you were always there with open arms, letting me in, resting my head against your heart, listening to your heartbeat softly speak. Telling me never to run and hide from my troubles or fears. I thank you mom, thank you for your motherly love. I know how tough it is for you, as well as the girls, after the incident involving you know what, and you know who. I want to say thank you for doing the best you could of giving the girls and I a better life, you never gave up on us, you didn't run away. You knew you had to find a way to let the girls and I (especially me) that we can not hold onto the past, though I fell on my knees numerous times letting out numerous cries, you picked me up and told me with such gentle voice "It's not the end baby, It's only the beginning. Im not going anywhere, stand up baby, I love you, we're going go get through this." Mom you have no idea how much those words got me thinking. If I were to turn back time I wouldn't do it, because remembering times when we had our moments of hatred I finally understand why you told me that I was acting foolish and selfish. I want to say I'm very sorry for the pain I've caused you. I still love you and I thank you for taking on the task of raising my beautiful sisters and I (your daughters) all on your own without hardly any help from anyone. You are my idol, who one day will follow in your footsteps. I want you to remember that I Love you and always will. I'm proud to say "Yes, that beautiful, strong women is my mom!" I love you mom and Thank you for everything! You are a role model for all women of all ages especially me. You've help me appreciate time and the little moments it holds. So don't feel stressed any more, Im here for you mom always and forever.
Love your baby girl Shabbie<3

Failure is a key

Words are forever going to be confusing to me! I mean there's masses of words out in the world, most aren't even in the dictionary. When the words are already in the dictionary, then you hear others speak and they end of using the word no where close to correct. Now don't even get me started on essays which are my worst enemies. Proper vocabulary, grammar, organization, etc. Even though I try to follow the proper instructions of writing a great paper, I always end up with a not so great grade! Failure is a lesson right? We have such high expectations for Everything, well I do at least, anyways I was wondering to myself one day. What if failure did not exist? what if everyone succeeds at everything? How would life be? Stress free? Well in my opinion I think life would be bad! For example in our society we have criminals, and imagining having a successful criminal who gets away with everything! He/she never gets caught and we have this psychotic individual walking amongst us is terrifying. A loved one, or someone you know may be the next target. Well I guess my main focus is this, failure is a great milestone, yes indeed it may hurt but, in the end we learn lessons. That is why it's important that criminals fail. In the end they will learn a moral lesson,while they are being held in prison for their criminal deed they caused. So I will turn my failure of my essays into something good. Into using my failure as a key of learning that I will soon one day see on my essay "Great Paper Shantina!" Failure is good, so think positive of the next time you fail. You just learned a valuable lesson.